I’ve been trying to organize my thoughts. They come out through my thumbs just to get them out, so I can make it through a day sane, only to return to a pile of thought. Thought, I had assumed, I’d more-easily organize now that I’ve opened some head space. So far…nope. Just many, many more notes to self.

I’ve come across several, “I’m so excited God could…” statements in my writings that are giving me pause; pause because of a few truths He’s causing me to recall in this season.

I’ve been trying like the dickens to get involved. In what? At this point anything, it seems. And, for what I’d think is a pretty significant amount of effort, I can’t seem to find Christian community. Volunteer or otherwise.

One of the truths He’s trying to expose, as I struggle to, in essence, “pay” Him back: He loves me. He doesn’t love what I can do for Him. He doesn’t love me for what I’ve done, or what I will do. He doesn’t love me less for what I do or do not do for His glory.

He. Just. Loves me.

I can’t pay Him back. I can’t earn it. Neither can you. He. Just. Loves us.

I’ve been trying. I’VE. ME. In my own strength. While it’s good to love well and serve my community, I can so easily, unconsciously, find my worth, my identity, in my ability to “serve enough” or “please my Father enough”.

What’s your “if I, then I’m enough”? If how you love and who you serve is rooted in love, wonderful! How grateful we are we get to serve Jesus through the people around us. If you’re like me, I’d simply encourage you to take a look at your if-then, and remind yourself that what you do and who you serve is NOT why you are loved. Literally not who you are. You’re loved because you are Our Father’s Daughter, His Son. That’s it. We just GET to express our gratitude in the way we love others.

You are worthy of His love.

So go manifest the socks off that love!! But if you don’t…you’re still His kid. Your socks, are still loved off. <3