“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak” -Matthew 26:41 So often as I’ve claimed the grace and forgiveness offered by my Father, I feel like it’s too easy. Even as scripture tells me I am no longer associated with my sin, no […]
The Truth: Why You Are Loved
Understanding who we are is critical in knowing we are loved. It can feel difficult to believe, and I think what we’re really asking is WHY we are loved. If it’s true that we’re loved unconditionally, there’s a reason, right? I’ve spent the last several years asking God to help me identify as His daughter, […]
Worrying about this new paunch I’m growing…
Tomorrow I’m going to be sitting as an art model. I have zero idea what to expect, I’m nervous, but I’m mostly excited. It’s also January in northern Michigan. I can sense a spiritual shift in me in this solitude…and my appetite has been stellar. Breakfast last three days even; high calorie all-day deliciousness I […]
Identity
How we perceive ourselves and everything around us will dictate our experience. It all comes down to IDENTITY. Even the most successful, secular, figureheads will tell you that in order to re-train your mind, (some would say emotions), habitual change is not enough. What we believe must become our identity. The core. Everything must flow […]
I took a swing
I took a swing at Jesus this morning. As I do my best in not condemning me, nor the Him that is inside of me, IS me, I catch myself asking Jesus, “So how is this going to work?” The ways I’m already beating myself up today I’m noticing, but I’m unsure as to how […]
Condemning Christ
In prayer this morning I caught myself asking God to help me be nicer to myself; to limit all the ways I beat myself up over even the tiniest thing I may have done or said. Keep in mind it doesn’t have to be sin, it can be anything, breaking something for example. It was […]
I’ve been trying
I’ve been trying to organize my thoughts. They come out through my thumbs just to get them out, so I can make it through a day sane, only to return to a pile of thought. Thought, I had assumed, I’d more-easily organize now that I’ve opened some head space. So far…nope. Just many, many more […]
Earning it
I’ve spent a lot of time attempting to “earn” the approval of others, human and Devine. In prayer this morning I asked most explicitly yet that The Lord reveal to me why, when I had the love and seeming “approval” of so many, I felt so much personal lack. I desire to be in close […]
Price Tag
Our time, attention, and devotion have a price tag, and we get to determine the cost of access. I’ve found that as I claw my way out of a season of loneliness, I’ve allowed people to treat me in ways I wouldn’t ever “treat them back”. I meet a person who initially seems to be […]
Process of Becoming
Last night I went out and hit a local watering hole in effort to be social, make connections, and maybe sing a tune or two. It was a great night, although I had a sense of vulnerability I couldn’t put my finger on. As I made my way to the car, a female bar tender […]