I keep coming back to David.  KING David.  What it was about King David that allowed for him to pursue God’s heart so completely, despite his laundry list of sins and subsequent consequences?

Where I landed: King David knew he was a king.  By default, he knew as king he could do whatever he wanted, as though he truly understood Paul’s words spoken thousands of years later. “Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is beneficial.” (1 Cor 10:23) As king….he could pursue the Ark of the Covenant.  As king…he could dance naked in the street.  He didn’t worry about what other people thought of him…he didn’t have to. Even being king, he knew he had an audience of One.

It’s the same for us, if we choose to see it.  We are royalty, made in His likeness.  We are not Jesus/God per se, but we are made in His image.  We too are princesses of The King, Christ’s bride.  We desire to please Him.  And while we pray for forgiveness as our sin natures fall short, we can release it immediately knowing that that’s just what it is.  It’s no longer us, it’s our sin nature causing us to “do the things we do not wish to do” and keep us from doing “the things we know we aught.”(See Romans 7)  Once we can separate our Christ-like royalty from our temporary flesh, it allows us, as David did, to praise, serve, and seek unabashedly, with no consideration of our sin…our sin nature.  We can condemn our sin nature and ask Our Father to forgive and take it.  But we do not condemn ourselves.  God doesn’t (John 5:22) Jesus doesn’t (John 8:11).  Why would we, if we’re made in Their image, Jesus only did what he saw The Father doing, and we’re called to do the same?  He did a lot of things…but one wasn’t condemning humanity. What even gives us a right? Jesus says we’re enough, and we think we know better? We are literally made from them, in them. I find myself double shaming each time I realize the reality and can’t feel it. I took a wrong turn, I realize I’ve been condemning myself…and then condemn more when I realize I shouldn’t be doing that either! It fees SO circular. If you do too, careful. Just as Our Father is lovingly showing us we’re enough, the father of lies is right there, whispering we must have gotten that part wrong, that there’s no way Dad and Big Brother Jesus already moved on.

We didn’t miss anything. We ARE enough and shame has no place in us or The Father’s kingdom.

Father, please give me eyes to see today my inheritance; the daughter I am of the King of the Universe, Creator of Heaven and Earth, full of Your glory.  Please help me to see that I AM your glory.  Please help me worry less today about making mistakes and focus more today on loving, so I am able to see, live, and reflect my true inheritance as your child. Amen.