I asked the Lord three times to take it away from me. He answered me, “I am all you need. I give you My loving-favor. My power works best in weak people.” I am happy to be weak and have troubles so I can have Christ’s power in me. I receive joy when I am weak. I receive joy […]
Been asking myself…
I’m single. Formally less than a year, but my learnings are from a fire hose. I’m pursuing self-advocation, self-care, and self- respect, in effort to resist shame that feels like my own personal kryptonite. Sure, new men appear interested. Typically, I am not. Thing is, it’s not always single men who show interest. So, I’ve […]
His presence
“When I am here, I forget clocks and bells, and all the things that occupy me while I’m being Dutch.” -Dragons in the Waters, Madeline L’Engle While I’m not Dutch and don’t pretend to be, the wistful nature of the above statement had this book on rewind for several minutes. I wasn’t sure why it […]
Defense
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no account of wrongs. Love takes no pleasure in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, […]
Seeing Me in Him
I’ve admittedly wondered why God had allowed a raging, spirit-filled fire like mine to be quenched; even for a season. I thought I had been loving e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e well. I don’t claim perfection, but like Job, I’ve begged God to show me what I had done wrong, what I hadn’t done right, why He’d given me […]
We all worship something.
We all worship something. It’s how we were made. Worship is a spiritual act, no doubt, although it’s made manifest in how we live our lives, so it’s often mis-perceived as something else. Some are more obvious than others (drug addiction, for example), but food addiction is the same hurting spirit made manifest in a […]
Dispute
I couldn’t tell you how it started really. I can tell you that I didn’t say much, this person said a whole lot with intensity, and it was my faith on trial. I can also tell you the peace I felt in the moments during and after is the stuff of “passing understanding”. Just wow. With […]
I took a swing
I took a swing at Jesus this morning. As I do my best in not condemning me, nor the Him that is inside of me, IS me, I catch myself asking Jesus, “So how is this going to work?” The ways I’m already beating myself up today I’m noticing, but I’m unsure as to how […]