I’ve heard…A woman forgets the pain of childbirth after the child arrives because she’s consumed by joy. You, like me, may not have been pregnant to know for sure, but it’s the same in hard seasons. They SUCK when actively experiencing scenarios that make up the dark season as a whole. On the other side, […]
Highly Qualified
I was thinking about how to reframe my mistakes so they didn’t pack such a shameful punch. What did I come up with? My mistakes are learning certificates, not condemnations. And this life thing? I’m HIGHLY QUALIFIED. I have many learning experiences I want on one hand to forget and bury, and yet I also […]
Seeing Me in Him
I’ve admittedly wondered why God had allowed a raging, spirit-filled fire like mine to be quenched; even for a season. I thought I had been loving e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e well. I don’t claim perfection, but like Job, I’ve begged God to show me what I had done wrong, what I hadn’t done right, why He’d given me […]
Earthly Fathers
“I didn’t raise you to be so judgmental!” Soul crushing words as my dad and I argued theology. I was in my teens. My parents had recently divorced, and I’d been pursuing a far too conservative angle in my efforts to connect with God; to make sense of my young life…in his opinion. But he […]
Worrying about this new paunch I’m growing…
Tomorrow I’m going to be sitting as an art model. I have zero idea what to expect, I’m nervous, but I’m mostly excited. It’s also January in northern Michigan. I can sense a spiritual shift in me in this solitude…and my appetite has been stellar. Breakfast last three days even; high calorie all-day deliciousness I […]
I’m still the exception
When C19 started, I thought I would be the exception. I was certain that while the world was about to experience fear on a scale it hadn’t seen in a century, I was going to be the one who reminded people they were loved, and that there was always reason to choose joy. And at […]
I’ve been trying
I’ve been trying to organize my thoughts. They come out through my thumbs just to get them out, so I can make it through a day sane, only to return to a pile of thought. Thought, I had assumed, I’d more-easily organize now that I’ve opened some head space. So far…nope. Just many, many more […]
Truth
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” -John 8:32 A girlfriend called the other day, and said she had been compelled to share this verse with me. She said that I will know the truth, and the truth will set me free. Interesting timing as I work through the […]
Process of Becoming
Last night I went out and hit a local watering hole in effort to be social, make connections, and maybe sing a tune or two. It was a great night, although I had a sense of vulnerability I couldn’t put my finger on. As I made my way to the car, a female bar tender […]
It’s gonna be better
This morning I found myself praying to God that He bring me back to the place I was before, where I’d felt so connected and in community, serving my purposes intentionally…filled with His joy, my strength. The quiet response was something I’d considered in passing prior, but needed to revisit. The last few years have […]